Archive for January, 2005

A sad day

January 31, 2005
I do not know whether i should be happy or sad today. Cause i spent like 20 bucks on cab fare to school which i could save on. I think my memory is really getting from bad to worse. As i remember the wrong timing for my maths lect. I thought it was 1330hrs but this is the ending time for the lect. So in the end, there was a one hour timelap between what i thought and reality. The only way to make up for the timelap was to take a cab down. I still thank God for all this. Cause there is the second part of the story. Actually i was still bumming around in my house, until my friend called and asked me where i was. Then he made me realised that i was out of time. So this is the whole story so why do i have to spend so much today. I think this week my saving will be negative. Sigh…

They Could not

January 31, 2005

A song by Sandi Patty.

They looked at Him and saw a simple man,
A carpenter with healing in His hands.
They saw Him calm the sea and heal a dying man;
They saw, but could they really understand?

They could not, They could not;
Though they tried, they could not.
He was just a simple carpenter
With healing in His hands,
But could they really understand? They could not.

They listened to the teaching that they heard
And wondered at the myst’ry of His Word.
They wondered what He meant about a Father’s plan;
They heard, but could they really understand?

They could not, They could not;
Though they tried, they could not.
They listened to His teaching about a Father’s plan,
But could they really understand?
They could not.

So finally upon a rugged cross,
They killed the man who would not suffer loss;
And when at last they took what willingly He gave,
He died, but could they keep Him in the grave?

They could not, they could not!
Praise God, they could not,
And when at last they took from Him
What willingly He gave,
Could they keep Him in the grave?
Could they keep Him in the grave?
They could not, they could not!
Praise God, they could not,
And when at last they took from Him,
What willingly He gave,
Could they keep Him in the grave,
Could they keep Him in the grave?
Could they keep Him in the grave?
They could not! They could not!

Overslept

January 30, 2005
I overslept today so you all can guess that i did not go to church in the morning. Quite disappointed in myself. I am really tired. I need more strength to go on with my life. But i went for soccer in the afternoon. Lame me. Had fun with my church guys. My socks got torn by one of them so have to get myself a new one soon i guess. My foot is quite painful still because of the tackle. I like my soccer boots. Haha. It is good man. Then i finally found the lyris of the song ‘You were there’ as i listened to the song. I was quite touched by it. Hopefully i can get to sleep more ot else i will be very tired again. Sigh…
Just to say sorry again to those i offended especially to Elaine.

I wonder how it must have felt
When David stood to face Goliath on a hill
I imagine that he shook with all his might
Until You took his hand, and held on tight

‘Cause You were there, You were there
In the midst of danger’s snare
You were there, You were there always
You were there when the hardest fight
Seemed so out of reach
Oh, You were there, You were always there
You were always there

So there he stood upon that hill
Abraham with knife in hand was poised to kill
But God in all his sovereignty had bigger plans
And just in time, You brought a lamb

‘Cause You were there,
You were there
In the midst of the unclear
You were there, you were there always
You were there when obedience
Seemed to not make sense
You were there, You were always there
You were always there

So haven’t I learned that my ways
Aren’t as high as Yours are
And You alone keep the universe
From crumbling into dust
You are God and though we would
Not have understood You
There You were

Hanging blameless on a cross
You would rather die than leave us in the dark
Every moment, every planned coincidence
Just all makes sense
With Your last breath

You were there, You were there
During darkest hour
You were there, You were there always
You were the Victor and the King
You were the power in David’s swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands
You are the strength when we have none
You are the living, Holy one
You were, You are and You will always be
the Risen Lamb of God

You were, You are and You will always be
The Risen Lamb of God

I like the sentence that ‘You were the strenght when we have none’.
I need You as my strenght, oh God.
My understanding on this world is so limited like an ant looking at those buildings that we built.
So am i looking from where i am looking at the universe You have created.
I seek You for wisdom and understanding.
Hope i will be more sensitive to other people’s feelings.
Help me to keep my lips tight when i am about to say something bad.
At times, it will slip my mind. Help me, remind me and stop me.

Sorry

January 30, 2005
The most important is to apologise for all my crude and sarcastic remarks for today. Here is my one thousand and one apologies to those people that i have hurted with my remarks today especially Elaine. I am really sorry about that. I can forgo your part of the cab fares to make it up to you. Sorry guys, cause today i was not in a very good mood though i seen happy. Cause i met up with someone. I will not tell the story here cause no point as you all do not know. Those who know one also do not know my blog. So… Went to the ‘Morning Glory’ production today. As i have said, it was quite ok the standard for students. Cannot really expect too much for them. I still admire them for their efforts that they put into the production. Got nothing much to say. Anyway i feel quite happy to settle my friend birthday present for today. Which is the same friend who makes me feel sad. Enough about it. Please stop typing on it, steward. Oh no, i am talking to myself. Am i getting some mental illness called ‘Schizoid Personality Disorder’? People listen up this is a warning to you all, do not get close to me for your own safety. Thank you and have a nice day.

Economy Theory is a killer but i like it

January 28, 2005
Went for my economy theory for the first time today. Did not prepare or do my tutorial before i went there. Cause i do not how how to do them. So just went there to listen. Was quite interesting. I find myself getting more and more attached to economy. At least, this is something that i enjoyed and understand. Really regreted taking engineering in the first place. Too late for it now. Have to face the music for not studying hard for A’s level. Suffering for the next 3 and a half more years to come. What can i do man? Have to give my other cell group a miss tomorrow cause i am going for linus music production. Have to support him for all his hard work and efforts that he put inside this event. No matter what, he has done his best. So best of luck for tomorrow man, linus. After this, remember to come back to cell group. Or else, money back. Haha. I think that is all for today as i have nothing much to say also. Can’t wait for sunday to come. Again i am saying this cause i really i want to try out my new soccer boots.

Painful back

January 27, 2005
Had a tired day today. Was like felling asleep during my physics lecture. Trying hard to keep myself away. Nothing much happened also. Have two maths quizes today. 1 was good and 1 was bad. But still give thanks to God for all that. Managed to read the bible on the train today. Quite good as in reading the bible early in the morning. Well, there was this song that was echoing in my mind the whole day long ‘I will never be the same again’. I was like singing this song and enjoying it all day long. I do not know why myself. I find it the lyrics quite meaning.

I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I’ve closed the door
I will walk the path, I will run the race,
And I will never be the same again

There are higher heights, there are deeper seas,
Whatever You need to do LORD, do in me
The glory of GOD fills my life
And I will never be the same again

Fall like fire, soak like rain,
Flow like mighty waters, again and again
Sweep away the darkness,
Burn away the chaff,
And let a flame burn, to glorify Your name

Somehow i am drawn to this song. That after i believed in Christ, i will never be the same again. I do not want to leave a door behind me opened that i could go back to the path i took the last time. I want to run the new race in Christ. As there will always be mountains which are higher and seas which are deeper. So God’s ways are always higher than us and His love is always deeper than the most that we could give. Please LORD, complete the works that You have started in my life. Let Your glory fills my life as i want to be more like You. Renew me daily and let Your spirit fills my life. Burn away the sins in my life and trial my heart. Do not let darkness and evil desires dwell in it. Ignite a fire that will burn strongly for You. One that will spread the flame to others. This is my prayer to You, oh God.

Happy Day

January 27, 2005

Too tired to blog today. Leave all to tomorrow. Elaine i will tell you next time. Haha. Got to sleep now. Take care.

Spent a lot today

January 25, 2005
I had a very tired day man. Almost went around the whole singapore just to get a few things. Haha. Lucky i completed what i set out to do today. That was to pay my hostel bills, get a new pair of soccer boots and buy a bible. Well, thanks to God i managed to complete all 3 missions today. But there is a additional fourth one which is to study for my 2 maths tests on thursday. Which right now i am too hungry and tired to do that. Guess have to study during my morning trip to school tomorrow. No choice man. I like my soccer boots a lot man cause they are very fitting and soft. No need to have wear them for too long before my feet get used to them. Hope i can play well with them. Haha. I am so happy that there is cell group tomorrow again. Kind of miss it or i miss ethan? But whatever is it, i am glad to have the chance to go back. Though i do not know how long this is going to last. I will enjoy and treasure every moment that i am there. I really hope that we can really grow together as a cell and serve God more in our lives. What we do on earth is all for Him alone. Hardly can wait for sunday to come fast, then i can really try out my new boots.

My trip is being changed to thailand first

January 24, 2005
Well, i met up with the staffs today and my trip for this June is being changed to Thailand first. Though it is not my first choice but it is still ok. For a start i guess, thailand is still a nice place to start with. Hope God will guide me through this and i may grow in Him daily. Please pray for me, guys. Thanks.

Serving

January 23, 2005
I remembered last time i read a book and it is about oneself and ministry. It describes the left hand as your relationship with God and the right hand as your ministry for God. It mentioned that both your hands must be on the same level. Cause if your right hand is on a higher than your left, then one will feel tired and dry after sometimes cause the more you are serving God the deeper must be your relationship with Him. If not, after a while you will find that you will be only using your own strength to serve and you will feel drain very fast. One need to depend on God’s strength and anointing to serve if not one will never go far. It will only be bad for your relationship with God. Otherwise, if your left is higher than your right, it is not correct also. Cause one will feel a sense of loss and your relationship with God will also suffer in this case. So we need to have a deep relationsip with God in order to do more for Him. How much does your spirit thrist for Him? Is it greater than your pain, sorrow, desires and your physical needs?