Archive for February, 2007

How should i feel

February 28, 2007

I am still wondering how should i be feeling right now. There are things to be happy about and things to be sad about. Was going to give her some stuffs as a surprise for the day but she forgot about it and went home. Haha. Nevertheless, God was still a step faster as He again had prepared my heart for it. It was only up to the point that i have surrendered all my feelings and listened to what He has to say. Then her sms came and … I wondered how would i feel if i just insisted on my own way? I’m glad that He did it again. Finally, i am done with the present. Made a few mistakes along the way still it is DONE. This is the first time that i actually really done up something that i have in my mind. In the past, i will just forget about it and grab something off the shelves. Personally, i feel it’s quite nice. Can be improved still.

Once again, people are trying to attack Christianity again. About how Jesus has never rose from His grave.

The Time Magazine blog provides the details:

Brace yourself. James Cameron, the man who brought you ‘The Titanic’ is back with another blockbuster. This time, the ship he’s sinking is Christianity.

In a new documentary, Producer Cameron and his director, Simcha Jacobovici, make the starting claim that Jesus wasn’t resurrected –the cornerstone of Christian faith– and that his burial cave was discovered near Jerusalem. And, get this, Jesus sired a son with Mary Magdelene.

No, it’s not a re-make of “The Da Vinci Code.” It’s supposed to be true.

Let’s go back 27 years, when Israeli construction workers were gouging out the foundations for a new building in the industrial park in the Talpiyot, a Jerusalem suburb. of Jerusalem. The earth gave way, revealing a 2,000 year old cave with 10 stone caskets. Archologists were summoned, and the stone caskets carted away for examination. It took 20 years for experts to decipher the names on the ten tombs. They were: Jesua, son of Joseph, Mary, Mary, Mathew, Jofa and Judah, son of Jesua.

Israel’s prominent archeologist Professor Amos Kloner didn’t associate the crypt with the New Testament Jesus. His father, after all, was a humble carpenter who couldn’t afford a luxury crypt for his family. And all were common Jewish names.

There was also this little inconvenience that a few miles away, in the old city of Jerusalem, Christians for centuries had been worshipping the empty tomb of Christ at the Church of the Holy Sepulcher. Christ’s resurrection, after all, is the main foundation of the faith, proof that a boy born to a carpenter’s wife in a manger is the Son of God.

But film-makers Cameron and Jacobovici claim to have amassed evidence through DNA tests, archeological evidence and Biblical studies, that the 10 coffins belong to Jesus and his family.


Working on it

February 27, 2007

Just bought a nice photoframe today. So i will be working on it so that i can give it as a present on sunday. Can post it here since she already guessed that. Haha. I tried to swim on the few points of improvement that Noel taught me last sat. Oh well, it was really tiring. Better change back to my lazyman stoke. Haha. Not much happened for that. Saw grace at TJC crossing the road with her friends. I called her wanting to give her the element of surprise. Duhz, she never heard the phone. Sian. Spoilt the fun. So just took a bus home and cooked myself some instant noodles. That was my only meal for the day. Somehow my heartbeat seems weird right now. Haha. Sam did not sms me about the badminton session for tomorrow. Maybe Chris never booked the court. Haha. Anyway was going to stay at home and finish up the gift. A bit more to be done. Think i should be jogging instead of swimming for tomorrow. Then maybe thursday swim again.

Busy day

February 26, 2007

Oh man. Why am i still awake at this hour? It is 3plus in the morning and i’m still awake. Haha. It’s like returning back to my hall life once again. Sleeping only at the wee hours. Busy day ahead for tomorrow. I’m totally in love with ‘High School Musical’. It is clean and nice. Takes a kid to love the show. The songs are like awesome. Totally my kind of music. So maybe i will get the soundtrack and listening. Will be passing the dvd to Cass after my swim at her school. Haha. Think she will love it too. By this time, i have watched the movie 3 times. Hehe.

No ideas

February 26, 2007

Things did not went as smoothly as i thought it will be for today. Went to Sam’s house as planned and got the tutorials from him. Played a few rounds of Winning Eleven 10 and used his dad massage chair for a while. Haha. We went down to bugis after that. After shopping or rather walking for 1 hour plus, i still never bought anything. Last minute, i decided not to get what i originally wanted. So time is really running out now and i do not know what to buy. Was suffering from a bad headache the whole day, i think that was part of the reason why i could not get any ideas. Because of that, i did not went down for cell as i planned. Even now, i feel like vomitting and giddy. Is it because of Stress? Hmm… Time to head down for a swim before studying for tomorrow. Oh ya, i just got this wonderful idea on what to give on my way home in the evening. Just that i do not know if it will turn out nice.

Taking a break

February 25, 2007

Nothing much to write about for today. Just felt glad to see Richard and Silin in church for today after so long. This is the first time that i am on duty for PA yet i was not there the whole time. Cos i went to meet them for breakfast and do some catching up. Before we knew it, the whole service was over. Xav, Dan and the the 3 of us were sitting at the 1st floor and chatting away. Not too bad for fellowship. Still have not decide whether should i continue to swim for tomorrow. Since i have promised someone not to overexert myself, then i shall not. Can always change it to some strengthening exercises. Anyway my brother is going to swim so i will not be going. Haha. Around noon will be heading down to Sam’s place and borrow some homeworks from him. After which, i think maybe bugis bah. Saw something interesting there on sat, so i think i know what to get for Cass as her baptism present le. Not too sure if the ‘wow’ factor is there cos i only have a glance on sat while rushing to get my hair done. Hehe.


February 24, 2007

I injured my left foot after running 4.3km and swim for a while with Noel. It’s not bad. Next time can ask him along for such activities. Haha. After which i went for a talk in NLB, something about asset allocation by NTU NBS lecturer. Haha. It’s was not too bad. Just felt a bit sleepy after the whole workout. Then went down to far east and dye my hair in GREEN. Haha. Am i the Hulk now? My last place will be at church for the china ministry. I think i can come often but have to leave early around 9plus. So i will not be tired the next day. Still have not got a gift. Haiz.


February 23, 2007

To sum up what i did today. Met up with Vincent for lunch at bugis. It was not bad. Talked over some issues. After lunch we just went to shop for a while and i still could not find a present. I really cannot find one with the ‘wow’ factor. My classmate, she smsed me in the afternoon and told me that she just read my email on the term paper. I was like …. Do not know what to say to her cos it’s been like 2 weeks plus and the reply i got from her was like ‘I just came back today and read the email. So you have found another group?’ Come on lar, it’s so unusual for a student not to check the email and especially we were in the mid of discussion for term paper. How she expect me to buy that crap? Anyway, i got another group with my friend and hers. Submitted the topic for it to my prof too. In the evening, i just went for my cell group gathering at Jane’s house. Suppose to be there at 8ish but in the end, Taive, Elaine, Dotz, Shing Yian and i turned up at 9pm. Haha. The culture of my cell for being late. The feeling of coming together, doing stuffs and having fun as one cell is nice. I guess that is the thing that my church cell is lacking whereby it is too church oriented. I tried the mixture of drinking wine and beer together. It’s bad. One will get drunk really very fast. We played pictionary together. My group managed to stage a comeback after being lagging very far behind. What a comeback. Truly amazing. Teng An also let me try a few L series lens for tonight. There is really a big different. Too bad i cannot afford them now. I think that all for my day.

Term break

February 22, 2007

Term break is starting next week and this means lot of studies to be covered. It will be a very busy week for me instead. The only different is that i can slot in my training schedule into it. Must plan now le. Feel so stress when i looked at the tons of work. I realised yesterday that i tend to put my focus on her rather than on God, which was like way wrong. The first time was fine as i was certain that my focus was on God but subsequently it just went out of focus. That is not what i want at all. Therefore at the end of our conversation yesterday, we prayed together once again. I am glad i did if not it will be just another chat.

In writing this blog, i will write down my whole life on it. Nothing i will try to hide unless it will REALLY hurt people. I want people to see who i am instead of who i want to be. If i am weak then let the world knows i am weak, yet i am strong in Christ. If i am poor, then i want the world to realise my true riches are in Christ.

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I overcome
Oh I could stop and count successes
Like diamonds in my hand
But those trophies could not equal
To the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope is Christ alone

In Christ alone will I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
And only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
Now I seek no greater honor
Than just to know Him more
And to count my gains
But losses to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope is Christ alone

New journey

February 22, 2007

I am embarking on a new phase in my life. Too much have happened over such a short span of time. I have told her the whole story of what happened. Hope you do not mind that i read a bit of what you have written. But do not worry, those concerning about other people God has sealed them away from me. Actually, the door has only been opened once. After that, i am unable to enter. Yup, so what could i say except thank you Father.

Went swimming for 3 days straight in a row, i do look much tanner now. Tomorrow shall be my rest day. Father, please bless the lunch section that i am having with Vincent tomorrow. And also on the topic of that i am going to hand in to my tutor on the term paper. Do give me wisdom on a good question to give him. Help me to forgive one of my classmates. Because of what she has done and today i was really tempted to email her and give her a piece of my mind. How could people be so irresponsible like her? Coming to think of it, i’m also like her. I have my shares of irresponsibility on church matters and other stuffs. So who am i to judge and condemn her? I pray that those i have hurt before because of my irresponsibility, they will be able to forgive me of my actions. Here i am coming broken to You, Lord. I do not want to show myself as strong to the world. I want the world to see Your strength in my weakness, Your grace in my needs and Your love in my life. A broken life and a contrite spirit is what i can offer to You.

Genesis 1:1-7, “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The world was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. Then God said, “Let there be lights”; and there was light. And God saw the light, that it was good; and God divided the light from the darkness. God called the light Day, and the darkness He called Night. So the evening and the morning were the first day. Then God said, “Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters.” Thus God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the water which were above the firmament; and it was so.”


February 21, 2007

Lord, thanks for showing me the things You want to show me. I know all Your works and those people You have put around me. Even if it’s only for this moment that i will be able to know all these. It’s enough. I know those who love me very much as a friend. It’s not right for me to look at the past to find out other stuffs. I’m so glad i could not. You have shown me what is selfless love for today. This i will not be able to forget in my whole life. For someone who kept her promise. I thank you for what you have done. Sorry if i ever doubt you for a moment in my life on my mind. You have shown me what is another level of relationship with God. I know this is planned by God for me to see all that. This is the kind of life that i want to have. Father, i want this kind of relationship with You in my life. Because of what you have done in silent, your life has changed mine at this moment. A relationship so deep with the Father. I could not find any words to describe it. From this second, i shall put aside any other BGR relationship and just to seek You alone.

A big sorry here to those who i have offended with my attitube and my words esp to Vincent. Sorry brother, it’s hard for me to talk to you because i treat you as a close brother of mine. Will you forgive me? Brother, there is no need to explain anything to me. God has shown me all and i know i am in the wrong for my thinking. I will try my best to be back for cell and help you all spice people up for God has shaken me up in His gentle ways. For the rest who have been praying for me in the quiet, i thank you all. To the one who honour the promise, i do not know if you know i am talking about you. God shown me something that no one else knows about it except you and Him. I want to say that i love you as a sister in Christ. I will treasure you as a close one for the rest of my life. Thanks once again. What you have done in the quiet, changed my whole life at this moment. Forgive me for doubting you once on my mind. Last of all, You deserved the best, no, it shall be everything in my life, my Father. When i am in such a point of time in my life, You did not close Your door on me. Yet, You held out Your hand and pulled me closer to You. Embraced me in Your loving arms and saying softly that ‘You love me’. How sweet is that 3 words to me. How real it is than anything in this world that we can see and hold. How deep they touched my heart that my whole life would not be the same ever again. This 3 words that You spoke to me will stay with me till the day i see you face to face again.

Written in tears. On 22 Feb 2007, 1.50am. This is where my whole life is changed.