Archive for November, 2007

Forgiveness

November 28, 2007

For the past few days, i have been relaxing. Went to Malacca with JY on Mon and Tue, it was quite a nice trip. Makes me understand quite alot of stuffs. Somehow when i saw the waterfall, some thoughts just came into my mind. Maybe our lives are just like water falling from the top of the waterfall. Our beginning is at the top and our ending is at the end. This is the same for all of us with no exceptions. As we just flow from the top, we begin to choose our own lives. Rocks will appear now and then to block our paths and we have to make a choice of which way to flow. Maybe some will just jump of the rocks and immediately reach the end faster than the rest of us. Is not it amazing that the free will of human is just like water?

Anyway i just watched Enchanted. It was a very nice movie. The humor is there. Love the songs and characters.

Forgiveness is not pardon. Forgiveness is an attitude. After the trip to Malacca, then i truly realised what is forgiveness. Sometimes i can’t learn go of the hurts that people have done to me in the past as the word ‘Sorry’ never never came from their mouths. I wondered is it a good or bad thing that they are out of my lives. Yet, the need to forgive them is holding me by my neck that at times i could not breathe at all. It took me the life of one special person who died 8 years ago to remind me of this lesson again.

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Malacca

November 25, 2007

Been a long time since i last blogged. So here am i back to visit my dear dear blog. Not sure what to write down also because there is not much things in my life for now. Been pondering over some issues. Anyway i will be going to Malacca tomorrow with Jy for 2 days. Can use this chance to take a break and lay down some plans for this holiday. Must save and save for this holiday and see if i will have enough for HK. Training and studying is also a MUST. After so long,  i am not sure if we still have common topics to talk about during the trip. Of the two groups, i am neither here nor there, that is why i am now alone in an island of my own. I will not get into the nix of neither that why i am still searching for now. Maybe it is time to find my own faith and not let other lead me.

Ending soon

November 17, 2007

My exams are going to end soon. As in like 5 days time. I think my results are really like shit for this semester. Not going to think about it. At most i will stay back for 1 more year. But i am not going to care so much about it. At the end of the day, it will not be affecting me that much except how am i going to answer to my Dad. I will face the consequences for my own actions. This is really a rough patch of my life. Hope has also be taken away from me. Just living my life from day to day. If i can pass some of my papers this sem, it will be amazing. Never go school for the whole sem and just studying for like 5 hours per paper. Wow. If i pass, i will be smarter than those mugger. 5 Hours to study one module and pass. Haha. Even i do not believe myself. So i am preparing to fail this sem. No church, no life and no money. What do i have?

Love

November 9, 2007

I am a fan of Stardust and i happened to see this phrase on Daniel’s blog so here i am copying this.

from the motion picture STARDUST :
My heart… It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it’s trying to escape because it doesn’t belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I’d wish for nothing in exchange – no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine

There can be many quotes about what love is. Many people will know how to answer when being asked what is ‘love’ to them. Yet, most never ever tasted true love in their lifetimes. Even for my parents, i can say that even after being married for so many years, they still do not know what is true love. Or maybe mine definition of love is beyond this world. Many things which are of values are lost as the world progresses. Nowadays relationship to people maybe just a tool for them to attain some goals that they have. Yes, it may seen a crude way of describing it, nevertheless it is so true in this world that we are living in now. There is no longer ground for moral values in people’s hearts. This is why love has lost it’s meaning. When values such as justice, honesty, kindness, purity and others are losing their values in this society. How can the greatest, love, still remains as what it was to be? Couples who can speak words of honey to one another and say ‘i love you’ and the next moment they break because of a small reason. Is this how love is to them? So much so that it is smaller than that reason. Or did they truly love each other in the first place? Last time i used to think that the greatest act that you can for the person you love is to die in place of the one you love. As i mature, now i see love in a different way. To truly love a person is to help the person to be the best he/she can be even it will cost your life. 

When Jesus died on the cross for me, it is not just by exchanging His life for mine. It is not just ensuring that i can be in heaven with Him. It is not just breaking the bonds and curses that sins have over me. It was to help me to be the best i can be, as who He has meant for me. Without Him, i can never break the bonds of sins and be the best of who i can be.    

Stupid movie

November 9, 2007

Just watched a movie directed by Jacky Wu. It was a stupid show. Think it is really a waste of time. Yet at the ending, there is a nice phase that i heard.

Time does not heal the pain in your heart. It just let you get used to the pain.

I do not know whether people agree or disagree with this. It got to be proven by those who are badly hurt in their lives.

EXAMS!!!

Here i come

November 4, 2007

My HK is confirmed from 26th to 30th Dec. It just fit nicely at the end of the year. Quite pleased with that as the trip was almost cancelled a few days ago because of the lack of air tickets. This is the first time that i will be going with a few not so close friends so i have to learn how to adapt to the whatever may happen. Treating it as a interpersonal relationship lesson for me during that 5 days. Exams are coming in a week time. Have not started studying for it. Going to die.