Archive for August, 2008

That’s what life is

August 29, 2008

How humorous life is. Just when i decided not to sell the lens at all, i got 2 new offers coming in. One from Richard and the other was from a buyer at JB. The terms were really nicer, in fact higher than the first two. I paused for a second and i still reject them. Do not know why myself. Started on Genesis all over again after so long of putting it at one corner.

When i was repressing my chips at lab today, one of the research students taught me a new way of doing it which was different from my mentor. I do not know which methods to use when my mentor was around though the new method is faster but unproven to us. When both of them were around, even more stress. Until she blurred out why i was not using her method to do when my mentor was also around. If he is ok with it then i am also ok. But who knows. Anyway, he was helping me doing my fyp early in the morning before i reached the lab. Though, i got scolded by him yesterday morning which he apologised later in the afternoon.


Rebellious son

August 28, 2008

This week is bad. Really bad. FYP was screwed up, need to do up alot of stuffs now. Broke now, is really super super broke. Was so tired that i slipped and almost fall just now when alighting the bus. Thank God that my body still can balance on it’s own without my help.

Tried to sell off my 24-70 to 2 buyers. The first deal was ok until he reached his daily withdrawal limit and told me it was a sign and need to reconsider. Haha. The second one i was 90% sure he was going to take it until he said no because of no box. Maybe this is a sign to me instead. I was so lost and blind that i have forgotten that it does not belongs to me anymore. How can i sell something that is not mine.

Similar to my life. I tried to try it back and regain control. Somehow it become more messed up.

Now i felt like the rebellious son, i should say i am one. Until now i am all broken and battered, mentally, physically and spiritually. I feel like the end of my life is in front of my eyes. I do not know what to do anymore but to hand it back to God. I want to know that love that is higer than mountains and deeper than oceans. The love that is purest of all loves.

Different ways to tie your shoes

August 27, 2008



Weekend burnt

August 23, 2008

A boring sat for me. Went back to school early in the morning for my FYP. It was a nice day to laze on my bed. Oh well, i did not really mind because my mentor also need to come back. He was the one who suffered more because this is not his FYP. I was more of doing nothing much except washing the equipment. He was the one doing all the tough stuffs. Really need lotsa of skills when i tried it myself.

Breakfast and lunch is breads which costs $2 for 2. Dinner is instant noodles. Living a poor man life.


August 18, 2008

Thank God that the weather was cold the whole day, i could rest well in this kind of weather. After this break, tomorrow will be starting on my FYP again. Going on turbo mode again. At least, i get a feel of how much i can go on before i need a break. It maybe due to all the appointments i had over the weekends. Good to go for now with my tank at 75% full.

Lately i have been learning on how to accept who i really am. No use in forcing myself to be the person i could never be because it is just not me. No matter who am i in reality, bad or good, evil or kind, i must learn to accept it. Only when there is true acceptance of who i am then changes can occur. One can never change a false shell, because it will just be another shell after that. Only when you know who you really are then you can change from the inside out, not outside in.

Still not quite able to bring myself to sell the lens. Unable to let it go because if i did then …

Bumble Beeeeeeee

August 17, 2008

I felt like a worker bee this week. Burying myself at the lab all day long to do my FYP. Lost track of time, it feels like weeks instead of days. Even sun i also need to go back for lab. Oh my ….. But i did managed to catch up with some of my friends. With JM, CH and WL on friday for supper at 85. Dinner with Dylan, Danny and ZW on friday too. Sat will be overnight at Dylan’s house and today’s dinner is with Sam, Alwyn, Dickie and Chin ee. Next week will be lab, lab and lab. Going into a burntout mode soon.

Does it matter?

August 12, 2008

When some of my friends heard that the research student who is helping me with my FYP is so nice. They was wondering if he is using my FYP for his own thesis. But does it really matter it the first place? Even if he will be using my results for his thesis, i still stand to gain in the end. Ultimately i still have to do this FYP no matter what, so it will still be a win-win situation for both of us. But i do not think he will be using that anyway. I seriously feel that he is helping me because he is a nice guy. Some may help for a motive while some just out of their hearts. Yet at the end of the day, if you stand to gain something out of it, it does not matter so much. Just that in the process of doing so, is there friendship to be build up. He even pay for the stuffs that i will be using for the next one year. So what can i say about that. It does put me to shame to some extent.


August 11, 2008

Finally i am starting on my FYP. Just met the PHD student who will be helping me with my FYP, he is a very nice guy. Can see that he is willing to go the extra mile for students. I am very glad that i have someone helping me. Cos if i work alone, i am sure to be very frustrated and slow. Thanks God for him. I have changed my FYP too as the original one will take me longer than 1 year to do. This one will be better. Actually for 4 years, i always feared of doing FYP because it will be doing alone and i hate that kind of feelings. Sometimes i am not sure if the prof that i get for my FYP will be helpful, seen too many who are just sitting on their payroll.

Oh well, indeed He knows me the best. Of who i am and what i am. At first, i thought the period of dryness will be over, yet i am in a slump again. Everyone who rise to great height, all went through great darkness. It is because of this, that will keep us humble. All can speak of their great stories when successful but how many stories that are in darkness are left untold.

anyway will be heading back to school for FYP even during WEEKENDS. OMG…


August 10, 2008
A Japanese man was in a hurry to go to the KLIA airport, so he took a Proton taxi. The taxi driver took his sweet time driving within the speed limit but the Jap was getting impatient.

The following is their conversation on the way to the airport …..
A Toyota Camry overtook the taxi…..zoom….
Jap: Look ………look …Toyota!! …very fast!!!…. made in Japan!
Proton…no good…. made in Malaysia.
Driver: yah….
After a few minutes a Nissan overtook the taxi….zoom.
Jap: look…. look…. Nissan!!!….. very good!! very fast! made in Japan!
Proton…. no good…. made in Malaysia
Driver: yah….yah…
After a few minutes a Honda overtook the taxi…zooom. !
Jap: look…. look… Honda!!…. very GOOD!!….very fast!!….made in Japan! Proton…no good…made in Malaysia
Driver: yah…yah…yah….!

Arriving at the airport,the Jap is about to pay the taxi driver.

Jap: How much?
Driver: RM150/-
Jap: Oh… very expensive….. you overcharge ! !
Driver: Noooo …. look …. look …. Sony meter!!….very good!!….very fast!…. Made in Japan!

Something interesting to share.

August 8, 2008

A young and pretty lady posted this on a popular forum:

Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?

I’m going to be honest of what I’m going to say here. I’m 25 this
year. I’m very pretty, have style and good taste. I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above. You might say that I’m greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York. My requirement is not high. Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary? Are you all married? I wanted to ask: what should I do to marry rich persons like you? Among those I’ve dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit. If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York City Garden (?), $250k annual income is not enough.

I’m here humbly to ask a few questions:

1) Where do most rich bachelors hang out? (Please list
down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)

2) Which age group should I target?

3) Why most wives of the riches is only average-looking?
I’ve met a few girls who doesn’t have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys

4) How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can
only be your girlfriend? (my target now is to get married)

Ms. Pretty

Here’s a reply from a Wall Street Financial guy:

Dear Ms. Pretty,

I have read your post with great interest. Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours. Please allow me to analyze your situation as a professional investor. My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I’m not wasting time here.

From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to
marry you. The answer is very simple, so let me explain. Put the
details aside, what you’re trying to do is an exchange of “beauty” and “money”: Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square. However, there’s a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason. The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can’t be prettier year after year.

Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciating asset, and you are a depreciating asset. It’s not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation. If that is your only asset, your value will be much worse 10 years later

By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position,
dating with you is also a “trading position”. If the trade value
dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term – same goes with the marriage that you wanted. It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be sold or “leased”. Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you. I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy. And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income.

This has better chance than finding a rich fool.

Hope this reply helps. If you are interested in “leasing” services, do contact me

signed XXX