Archive for January, 2009

Chinese New Year

January 25, 2009

Nothing much for this new year except drinking with friends on fri. Haha. I can say that it broke a new record of the amount that i drank. But i think i was only 40% to my drunk level. It was great that we just sat there drinking and singing. I guess next time my working life will be like that. lol.

Started reading on Genesis once again. Using the KJ version this time. I wondered if it is because of the language or others, but it got me thinking about new stuffs and gain new insights. It is a blessing so i give thanks for it.

Cross-roads

January 19, 2009

Here i am standing at the crossroad once again. I am glad that i am not the only one who is facing this problem of committment and relationship. Haha. After i chose to leave ECF, i have packed away all my feelings somewhere. During these period of time, i become quite a self centered person, who dares not commit to any relationship for the fear of losing it once again.

Of course there are times whereby i strongly felt the need to find someone to share my life but in the end, i feel that it is the best to be single. Doing whatever i want with my free times with no worries.

All these while, i have been confused because i do not know where to head next. I wanted to settle down once again in church but which one? I could not make a choice after so long. I have been telling myself for so long that if there must be any reason, let it be for Him and no one else. I cannot be 100% sure but i really want it to be just for Him alone. Yet, it seems that the longer i drag the more i am uncertain. My love for Him has it been tucked away too?

If there is one thing that i ask for this new year, i pray ‘Father that You will help me love You in a way that i never known before. A love so overwhelming that it would break my heart and what i am.’ I pray that Father help me make all decisions because of You and not others.

I cannot be sure if i am able to honour  You in my life but still i say ‘Yes, i shall. So help me God.’

Date

January 17, 2009

It has been quite a while since i went on a date. It was nice today at least to me. Quite happy to see there is someone out there who is in some ways like me. Not sure how this will move on from here. But leaving it in His hands. Everything in His own time.

Heartfelt …

January 10, 2009

All in all my fyp mentor is a good person. Though we had some culture misunderstandings at first, but it still did not change the fact that he is a nice guy. To take the warth of the other person because of the mistake that i have made. Putting all the blame to himself, really left me speechless.

What….

January 6, 2009

iBeen a long time since i last came here. Did not know what to post too. Too many random thoughts on my mind. Worrying a lot about what will happen when i graduate. I know it is useless worrying about it yet this is my nature to do so.

Just been informed by my mentor that after he goes on leave. I will not be able to use the testing station anymore, no matter if i have not completed my FYP. All this because of one woman… Worst of all, even the prof sided with her. What the …. In the first place, she was ok to let me use it on Fri and Sat. Then just yesterday she changed her mind, i guessed must be the conversation that we had on mon somehow got to her. If not, i really cannot think of any other reasons for her sudden changed of mind and why must it happened after that.

For now, i will hold my peace. Maybe try to find out more from others why did she suddenly changed her mind. If the truth is really what i think, then i will give her a piece of my mind after i graduate.