Archive for February, 2009


February 23, 2009

Finally this is my last term break. Can be considered one of my most relax term break as no quiz after this. But need to chiong my FYP all the way. Will be in school from the morning till late at night. But everything will be done by the end of next week.

Just came back from my group meeting. I really feel glad that they are serious about this business group. Keeping within this size of 4 and chunking out feasible ideas with contacts. Starting one that will make it big is not easy but it is there. I do pray for an immediate job opening for me cos i need to have some income in first. Do pray for me on this.


‘Old School’

February 19, 2009

I really cannot understand what my sister is thinking nowadays. She can just stay over at other people’s house for more than 6 days a week. Returning home just for a night before disappearing again. I have to admit that my way of thinking on this issue is still a bit ‘old school’ compared to the new generations. I still find it unacceptable.

The worst thing is we did not even know who she is staying with, is it her female friend or her boyfriend whom we have never met before. Does she understand the danger in the first place? I highly suspect that her boyfriend is also from City Harvest. Is it the thinking of this generation that i am unable to understand or is the church powerless to change all these mindset?

Seriously, if she is at her female friend’s house, then i think it still acceptable to a certain extent. To the point whereby she does not want to give us the details, does it not smell a rat? My mother only knows how to keep talking when my sister is not around but does not want to ask her from more details when she is back. Same goes for my father. Just let me be the bad guy. Great.

Valentine by Jim Brickman

February 18, 2009

If there were no words…no way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears…
No way to feel inside, I’d still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
..You would still have my heart until the end of time
You’re all I need, my love, my Valentine

All of my life…I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You’ve opened my eyes
And showed me how to love.. unselfishly

I’ve dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn’t love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time…
You’re all I need, my love, my Valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
‘Cause all I need.. is you, my Valentine oh oh
You’re all I need, my love.. my Valentine who-oh

Failed in Urban orientation

February 15, 2009

On friday, i went down to CMPB and it was to explain why i defaulted on my RT sessions. During the journey, there was the struggle of whether to just tell the truth or to weave a story with mixed truth in it. The story that i had in mind to escape the fine cannot be considered true nor false.

So then i  started to walk there without making a decision. Intended to take a shortcut but i got lost somehow and before i knew it, i ended up at Tiong Bahru and i have to walk back to Redhill again and just follow the bus route but saw the NKF sign and it looked familiar. Then i knew i got the ratio wrong, i walked in a 1:1 when it was supposed to be 2:1.

By the time, i reached there i had already walked for 1 hour and my No.4 was wet totally as if from a road march. But i have also decided to face the music and just tell the truth. Thank God for the mistake, as the officer in charge asked me was it raining outside. So i just told him i walked there and my current situation, he decided to let me off with just a warning.

On my way back, i decided to take another shortcut but this time round i ended up at Queensway shopping center. Haiz, really bad at this few areas.

Give Thanks

February 12, 2009

‘In everything, give thanks’ and that it is what i am going to do. I do give thanks to God for what i am experiencing now. Because of this, it helps me to experience how it is like to be worrying about daily expenses. I had my time whereby i can just splurge on luxury items and also this time of poverty where i have to depend on God.

It is during this time, i realised that a large percentage of teenages and kids are living in a stage of blissfulness. They do not have to worry about what may come tomorrow. Everything they need are being provided by their parents. Somehow i think when being in that environment for too long, it takes away the ‘steel’ in our younger generations. Too many are taking things for granted and they think it is right to do that.

Thy faithfulness

February 9, 2009

Great is Thy faithfulness. I give thanks to my Father for all the things i have. New mercies do i see daily in my life, from a stage of need to one of enough. Now i may not have abundance in material wealth but i have something which is far more precious. He will provide to me what i needed and also for His house. At least now, i have the option of not selling my lens until the last resort which most likely will be due to the fact that i am not a good steward of money if that happens.

When i decided to go into photography, i just wanted to shoot for His glory and not for mine. Even if i do not have much chance to do that now but i am glad that from this crisis of mine, i will have a testimony to share with others regarding my camera. I learned how to spot the little blessings around me from this crisis.

One of that will be my friend bought a car this semester and now he drives to school. Since he lives near me and our timetable almost match one another, i can just tag along with him to school and maybe back home for most of the days, it will help me save a sustancial amount on transport. For my last business venture, there is profit left for me to request to take and use in this time first and also the cash rebate that the government is giving out on March and July. If i use all these wisely, i shall not have any problems for the next 2-3 months. It maybe very tight but i think it will be just enough.

Psalm 23

February 6, 2009

1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

Now i have a faint understanding of how the old woman felt when she gave whatever she had to the Lord. How little was that yet it represented her all, though in the bible it did not say whether did she has an income. But if  all that she had was that little, then it will make sense that she has no source of income.

I give thanks to God for His providence in my times of need. I do struggle with the issue of whether to continue the support for the crusade staffs when i myself is in need. As it will mean alot at this point of time. If i stop, i may have enough to survive on my own for these 3-4 months of time before i get my 1st pay. 

My heart is telling me not to and have faith, when my head is telling me to make the more rational choice and save whatever i can.


February 1, 2009

Faith, this word never seem as really till time like this. When the road ahead is dark and it seems no way out. I never knew the power of it so personally yet at this point of time is when i need it the most. The faith to believe that God is in control of everything.

I just heard from my mother that the recession has hit my household. That will mean that my father is out of job and it is hard for him to find another one at his age. Therefore, i will not be having any income from him anymore. It does look bleak right now because i will have to settle everything by myself from tution fees, meals and transport. And NTU is so far away there is no way i could walk there. Yet, there is peace in my heart in moment like this. The faith in my Lord that He will walk with me in this crisis.

Thus, i maybe selling off my lens and flash in order to raise some funds for the next few months until i find a job. Therefore my dear friends, please forgive me for turning down of invitations for meals and outings as a sign of rejection. It is just that i will need to save up every cents and use my money even more wisely from now on.