Disappointment got the better of me this afternoon when she smsed me that she was sick and unable to meet me. Even though i knew it was not her fault but it just got to me and i kinda of got angry with her. As much as i understand but when expectation is built up to a high and then got crushed, it was not easy to bear with.

Thanks God that He preserved the time of the sunday school and service for me or else my disappointment will also affect it. I suspected something was going to happen when He told me to switch off my hp the moment i stepped out of my house. Never really bother to think too much about it at that time so at least i still learnt much today in church.

Even now i am still bothered by it and seriously considering if i should continue in this relationship. For the whole time, i have been striving to give my best and it was really tough with constant worries. Moreover, i have decided to stay on in that church more or less, so it will be less of a problem if i just stop here and we remain as friends. No more worries about other stuffs this way.

Funds are getting low with and my third line of defence has been broken. Yes Father, You do know what i need and i will continue to trust in Your timely help.

<< Psalm 121 >>
King James Bible

1 I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.
2 My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.

3 He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.

4 Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD is thy keeper: the LORD is thy shade upon thy right hand.

6 The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.

8 The LORD shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.


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