Archive for August, 2010

Where art my heart?

August 11, 2010

Has not been blogging for a long time. Since like i have nothing much to say now these days. Everyday is just a passing day to me. What meaning does it hold for now?

I am glad that there are still friends who care for me. Felt happy for Dylan on his ROM this coming Oct. Actually i do not know what to feel for my job here. For a normal person, he will be happy because that there are chances here for me to meet the higher management people because my bosses are bringing me around. Easy for me to climb the ladder here rather than in SG where everyone is the same.

But i felt like i have forgotten what i have came here for. No church here, no people who are christian and i do not even read my bible now. I do not know what am i doing anymore. When i first got this job and her, there was so much hope for the future. There are still some bitterness in my heart of all that have happened.

Father, where art my heart? I am lost for what to do. What am i becoming of now? Why did You leave me all alone now? What is right and what is wrong? How did people view me in the first place? Can’t they still contact me with her? I do not understand myself or people anymore.